In a state of confusion

I wish I could clear my mind of all things bad, but I guess that's easier said than done. I don't know who I am right now, or who I've become. My mind is like a made, a puzzle too complex to complete. It races frequently and I constantly over think. Over analyze. I have been searching for the person that lives within this body of mine for quite some time, but with no avail. The life I envision myself living is not one filled with sorrow but with bliss. When will I finally obtain this?